My it's a surprise that anybody still reads my LJ posts and even in the same day I wrote it too... Oh well it's not like anybody I know can help me right now, correction not anybody that will, only one can help and they won't, too many ties have been made and I have been cut from the thread altogether. I swear I feel like carving out pieces of my skin just so I have something that'll hurt enough to distract myself from other pains. Damn me and my ability to rationalize things... ... ... yeah it's time for me to stop writing and... I don't know, not be? I can't deal with this, it's just too much for me. ARGH!... so empty, so much pain... my own thought are my worst enemy right now... and the shaking starts again... Ok yeah, time to leave I can't take this anymore.
I don't know if anybody will be able to contact me for a while, I think it's about time I performed my magic vanishing act, lets see if I can't disappear for a while... Just need a little food to put me through each day or maybe not since I'm not eating much anyways. Make sure to make an appearance for the parents every day and don't take the truck... Hmmmm one last call before I vanish, but thats for tomorrow... *sigh* Maybe I'll vanish and maybe I won't. It takes so much energy to disappear... At the very least I can't take any of this anymore, I need to end it, cut myself from this new thread I've been woven into, I must correct it. An end and a beginning as it always was. Either way I'm not going to be around to talk to, for a while at the very least. Enjoy yourselves my friends I'll not be around to enjoy it with you, I have something I must do and that means I won't be around for a while... and I've gone and written a lot more then I probably should, right time to finish this. I must finish it...
But as always I must leave some tracks, I don't know why I feel I have to but I do, so if people want they can do something instead of nothing or something like that. I'm not even going to hide it in words this time, my cell phone is the only trail I'm leaving behind this time, if you want call that otherwise don't.